About Dear Bex

This is my place to speak to my daughter. She won't remember these early days in her life, and I want to make sure that I do! Plus, there's just so much I want to say to her and be sure she knows.

January 12, 2015

Life has changed. A lot.

Dear Bex,

It has been over six months since I last wrote to you - I am so sorry at that excessively long amount of time, but in my defense - A LOT has gone on!

You are a big sister.  On September 12, 2014, we met Lila Jane, and immediately our family dynamic shifted. You were suddenly - bigger. Older. More responsible.  As I've said a ton of times since she was born, her birth heightened every aspect of your personality - as mature and smart as you were, you are even more so now.  As silly and loud as you were, you are sillier and louder now.  As steadfast in your opinions, beliefs, desires and actions as you were, you even more... willfull... or stubborn... or steadfast now.  It hasn't always been easy between the two of us, or between you and The Daddy.  But you know what has? Your relationship with Lila.  You ADORE her, and have from the moment that you first met her.  You walked into the hospital room where I was, and we had her in her bassinet on the side of the room.  You asked for her, and immediately commented on how cute she is. You loved her instantly.  (The Princess Anna and Queen Elsa dresses she brought you helped a little, I'm sure...)

You smother Lila with kisses and constantly want to know where she is and check on her. You help me give her baths and wash her hair and feet for me.  You laugh at her, you are starting to make her laugh at you, and you love when we play all together. The first time I had her lay in your bed with you you were ECSTATIC, and we laughed and stayed in there for a while - it is one of my favorite memories so far. You have tons of nicknames for her, but the one that has stuck the most is Meepers.  I love it.  You always ask for "that little cutie" or "Meepers" or "Beepers" or "Lila cutie" and love making her say things in the voice that you have invented for her.

Sure, there have been some times that you weren't her biggest fan - she was a NOISY newborn, and that grated on all of us a bit.  You told The Daddy that they could hear her on Mars, Venus and Saturn one night.  And there have been a couple of instances when you ask us to put her down so we can play with you, or you inquire about if babies can go back into bellies... but for the most part, you have wholeheartedly accepted her and known that she is ours - that she completes our family,

She is four months old today - and in honor of that milestone, I am introducing Hi My Lila - first entry coming soon :)

More about the past six months of your life - your new big girl bed, your new school, your upcoming fourth birthday (!) soon...

I love you, baby girl - and now my big girl!

Love always,